Retail Therapy

One of the benefits of selling via online auctions is that it helps to motivate me to leave the flat.

Most of us have been there, feeling too tired, anxious or lethargic to make that trip to the post office, but the threat of negative feedback on the site is apparently just the kick up the backside that I need.

Such trips have been harder for me lately, with the practicalities of both a (suddenly) feral toddler and a breastfeeding newborn to consider. I hadn’t realised how much my confidence had been eroded by my job until it was too late. I found myself on maternity leave with zero resilience, feeling like a failure once again.

However, I am determined to get to a point where I am confident enough to take both kids out for the day by myself. That’s how I always imagined my maternity leave would be, not me dragging my poor partner around every time I need to go outside! The poor guy needs a break now and then.

Anyway, as he took the toddler out all day yesterday, I tentatively offered to venture into town with both kids in tow to allow him some time to study in peace.

This morning I was braced for the worst.

But you know what? The worst never came. The baby slept peacefully most of the time. The feral toddler was tamed (mostly by Smarties, no judgement please!). I didn’t even have to change a messy nappy or stop to breastfeed. I was surprised and elated. Maybe I could do this parenting thing after all? Maybe there was hope for me yet?

Slightly baffled, I quickly made my way home soon after completing my errands, before my ‘best case scenario’ shopping trip was marred by something ridiculous – like my toddler flipping out over the sky being the wrong colour, or suddenly bolting in the opposite direction.

Hooray for online auctions! And Smarties.